I am almost feeling numb at this point, trying to put this post together. In one sense we have been preparing for this move for several years now. There have been numerous times in the past few years that we have contemplated moving. However this time is SO much different. This wasn't on our agenda, we were enjoying life here in Utah, not necessarily looking for a change. But Mr. Steady's job continued to change here in ways that we were not expecting, nor did we feel like it was what God had for him. Long story short... Matt requested an internal transfer, searched for jobs here, we prayed lots, sought wise counsel, did our due-diligence, cried, agrued, dreamed, prayed some more, planned, traveled, were offered job in Cali, and after much debate we accepted it. Whew, it has been such a whirlwind this summer trying to figure out what was next for our family. Some days I handled the uncertainty better than other days. I do have a sense of relief now that we know where we are going. I am excited for life with our friends in California and the adventures that God has for us there.
But I am sad, so so sad to be leaving behind our family (Mr Steady's bro Zach, my sister Kerri and my 3 nieces) and friends here. (Okay, not feeling numb anymore, bawling my eyes out while I type that I can hardly see the screen.) We have been blessed with such amazing friends here... I don't know if amazing even begins to describe the kind of relationships that we have here. I am so sad to that we will be leaving behind my mothering-encouragers, the sweet friends that have helped us raise our kids thus far. The kind of friends that know me so well that I don't have to explain, that can take one look at me and have a pretty good idea of how I am doing. I am not only going to miss my dear friends, but also H's best little buddies and cousins.
H and cousin K.
I have cried lots of tears in the last few weeks as this job was being finalized. I thought that I would make it through today without crying... realizing that there are plenty of days ahead to do that. However, just putting this into words made it all the more real to me. I was sad last week, I am sad today and I am sure that I will be sad as the move approaches. Yet intermixed in all of the sadness there has been fun dreaming of what life will be like in gorgeous Orange County. Today I was finally able to share in the excitement when we told some of our Cali friends that we are heading south! (Total shock to all of them). And I was a total chicken today; I really didn't tell our friends in Utah that it is final. I know it will be hard to tell our friends, so I hope that you are reading it here. I know, I know, I am a total coward, emotionally exhausted, roller coaster!
Expect a little bit of ebb and flow of emotion from me in the next few months.... I don't handle change very well... but I am excited to see all that God has for us, not only in California, but also in the process along the way.
Thanks for your prayers!
Love ya all and so very thankful for your support... near and far!
