The initial adjustment to 3 was breezy for me, no sweat... yet right now I wouldn't say my days are breezy. I know it is just the season we are in, I am not trying to wish away a single day... even the hard ones. I can even attribute some of the chaos to some specific things going on in our house... B is on the move and on the look out for trouble. Bug is potty-training on top of testing out the boundaries as all 2 year-olds like to do, and H is curious about the world around him, asking tons of questions, needing heart training, guidance, instruction and encouragement.
I am realizing lately that being the mom I desire to be, the mom that I feel God is calling me to be is a lot of work. I am thankful that I am not in this alone! I am so thankful that daily God uses his Word to encourage and refine me and to help refine the hearts of my kiddos. I am thankful for moms that have gone before me (have older kids) that I can turn to for advice. I am thankful for friends in the exact life stage that I am at that challenge me. I am SOOO very thankful for Mr. Steady for the father he is and the example he is to me.
Through all of this, I am also realizing a couple of other things....
- I have to be intentional with my day... that my time with my kids is cherished and not just spent rushing around to the next thing.
- I can't expect that all other areas in my life will remain the same. I have 3 little people vying for my attention, 3 little hearts waiting for instruction.
- "Me-time" comes in small little doses, doing tasks that might seem mundane and/or tedious have become "me-time", like mopping the floor. Yet if I choose to have a happy heart (like I always ask my kids to do) and turn on non-kid music or a podcast, I can actually really enjoy this new version of "me-time." Sometimes it may come in the form of grocery shopping all by myself. Whatever it may be, I can choose to have joy in these moments...
- That my house will NEVER be all clean at the exact time... as hard as I try, it just doesn't happen.
- That I am needing to embrace that most things I do, get un-done, so that I can do it again, and it can be un-done again... (this topic deserves a whole post)
- Parenting is WAY harder than anyone ever told me it would be. It is full of joys and blessings, and I really wouldn't trade a single day of it, but I have to be honest, it is hard work!
- I have to get to bed at a reasonable time... or I am just not starting us out to have a "winning" kind of day!
Yikes, this tired mama needs to get to bed... I am already late on that "reasonable time" : )